Some days I am happy, content and ready to greet the day and all that it has in store for me. Then there is always a day or two where I hit a wall and just want to crawl back into bed and face the underside of my covers. Hide myself from everything around me.
Life has been crazy and hectic for our family for awhile with my husband going to school, having 5 kids one of which is a 6 month old, trying to keep up with a house that seems to never stay clean, yard work, laundry and other daily tasks as well as church responsibilities. But I have hit a day where not only do I NOT want to keep up, but I can't. I really truthfully feel like I can't. My energy is zapped. My motivation and determination down the drain. It seemed that I was on a roll, but somewhere along the line the balance was thrown.
Then my 4 year old, who was trying to open something, yelled to me from another room, "Mom! Can you help me? I'm not strong enough."
And like a bolt of lightening it hit me! I am not strong enough, at least not on my own, to face these challenges that I am having to face right now. We all have something that we have to endure. No matter how big or little these challenges may seem to someone on the outside, they ARE challenges and they ARE real for that person that is dealing with them. Too often I think that even when we are trying to stay close to God, we tend to lean on our own strength more than we should and we always fall short.
I am learning what it means to give all to Him and rely in His strength. I should realize that not everything I would like to do needs to get done or can get done as quickly as I would like. I also have had to realize that I don't have as much control on things as I would like. He is the one in charge. Not me.
There were too many things to do and I couldn't run fast enough. I have had to regroup. I am grateful that I can have these moments to regroup and that my children are resilient and can overlook my weaknesses and challenges. So, I have had to reanalyze what we have on our plates and downsize. It is hard, but I think we need it and I hope to see a difference in our lives because of it. So I think my 4 year old has given me something to ask in my prayers, "God. Can you help me? I'm not strong enough." It's amazing the insight we can get when we are seeking and wanting an answer from up above and sometimes the answers are so simple. We just have to be ready to receive them.