Tuesday was our first "official" day of home schooling (for Alyssa right now). It was a very busy day due to some things that I had scheduled awhile back, when I was unsure of whether or not we would actually be schooling at home. I went into it excited, hopeful and ready to conquer the WORLD! Bwa-hahahahaha! *menacingly rubbing hands together*
Then (head hung low) left with my tail between my legs.
Seriously! I felt like I had ruined my child on the very FIRST day! There were so many things that I wanted to plan and do differently, but I am still trying to get the curriculum together. I also was only able to get some Language Arts, Science and Reading. No Math or History! *gasp* (We did get to those subjects the next day-just so you know.)
Of course it wasn't until all was quiet that I felt like I was beaten-kids in bed, house straightened and my head on the pillow. Then the fear of failure set in. I hate the darkness that enters the mind when it is literally all dark around you, but before I drag you down to the depths of despair with me, let me bring back some light & happiness...the next day was a new day. I felt motivated again. Things were a bit smoother and I felt a little more on top of things. That night I slept really well knowing that tomorrow is always a new day.
Today was busy again trying to get grocery shopping, homeschooling, and cleaning done. I am tired, but I know that getting into a new routine is tiring. I go through this every summer break and every beginning of a new school year. Not to mention when I have had a new baby or when I finished a 2 year Interior Design Program in a year and my husband finished his EMBA in 18 months. We are still trying to get into an evening routine together! :) Somehow we all survived and have come out better because of it (at least that is my glass-half-full mentality trying to come out) and I know that through this new journey we will survive and I HOPE we come out better because of it. :)
So, far my daughter really likes it. She said to me last night (our 2nd night of homeschool), "Mom, I LOVE homeschooling cause you don't tell me what I need to do. I get to figure some things out for myself."
Stay Tuned...to read a post as to WHY I chose to homeschool! :)